Suddenly received a message to attend a meeting for all college activities at night. Thought it was nothing, but I hoped too high. Everything came flooding in in that half an hour of meeting. Everything!!
Suddenly, I doubt. I doubt whether I can manage everything.
Suddenly, I feel scared. I scare I won’t be able to cope. I scared that I make everything a mess. I scared everything that I manage will be a failure.
Suddenly, I am worry. I am worry how everything will turn out.
Everything is too damn sudden!!
I feel aimless. I don’t know where to start. I feel heavy, on my shoulder.
I know I can’t lose my way. I know many people is under my lead. I know it is my responsible to make everything turn out as they should.
All I can do, is try my best, which I really really hope that I can. All I can do, is not to panic. All I can do, is to hold on and look forward, which I definitely need to!!
All I can say, is, good luck to myself.
I just need a ear, no need a pair..
I need a shoulder, just to lie on for a while..
I need some encouraging words, no need too much..
I start missing home.. Damn!! I don’t wish to sleep on wet pillow.. oh God~ please lead me through everything~~