Sunday, November 20, 2011

你们越来越不是我认识的你们了。
是我变了,
还是你们?
>.<

好怀念当初的大家。

Monday, October 31, 2011



Out of reason,
this is what i intend to ask many many many people.

People in Lot2269, CSG, RR, Miri,
Hows there?
1 done study, 1 done major exam,
1 just back from China, 1 keep on cooking.
Looking forward to see you all.
Another month! And I will struggle on till then.

People in UT A806,
How are you guys?
Damn miss you all.
Intend to visit, but, yea, circumstances.

3 Flowers,
seems like you all are enjoying the final year.
Glad~
Oh, yea,
Stay Sweet! ^^
恭喜你们实现我们1st year无厘头的愿望,
终于找到蛋蛋了~
嘻!

My forever 'same name WC' sista,
glad for your change.
Turning lady~
Nice nice, pretty pretty, leng leng a~
And, yea, congratz for the best you have achieved!
I know you just have the ability!

People in Taman Tunku, Miri,
Done your final, dear~
So what's your next plan?
Hows life? and how's your Him?
Hope everything fine there~
Do come here for a visit!

People in the college nearby,
Hows there?
Intend to ask you all for a hang out,
but, yea, again, circumstances.

People far away,
Congratz for the good news.
LOL~

People nearby,
Forever busy, eh?
Glad that you make the best out of the worst.
:)





原谅没勇气的我,只能在心里默默的问候。

Sunday, October 23, 2011

A 14-hour Trip

3 people,



with 3 different aims, decided to pursue their dream.
They met up, 8.30a.m., and started off their journey.

1st stop, Klang Bak Kut Teh.
not a fan of Bak Kut Teh, but once in a while, is ok with it.
Same place, less crowd, more choice.


a variety of tea to choose

chinese crullers - a must with Bak Kut Teh


I prefer lean meat over fatty ones


if you like innards, you may ask for a mix.



braised egg and tofu - my all time favourite! well, can't compare with home-make ones.


Let's feast!!

As saying goes by:' stomach full, energy boosted.'
we are ready to head on our destination.
1 hour later, here we are!


LOGOS HOPE!


we survived the crowd!


better than UM hostel, agree?


crowded book fair. not as expensive as expected.


price system used on board.


nice artwork. the concept of "picture tells a million stories" us well-applied here.


fighting with little kids to take this photo. but don't know what is it actually. haha~


donation can't be missed out, since it is a charity-based bookfair.


Logos Hope do sail a lot!


and the volunteers are from a wide nation. no discrimination here! some country (erhem..) should learn form them!


Gloomy sky + frightening lightning + thundering thunder when we left.

TATA~ till we meet again, Logos Hope!
Belle de vous repondre!

How you come, that's how you go back.
so, taking the same transportation, 3 people, with dream fulfilled, headed back.
away from food for some time, their stomachs were growling.
Dinner? where? (think think think think think......)
End up, SS2 Sagambut Seafood Noodle Restaurant!

heard from this place since a long time ago. wanna try it out for a long time d. never have the chance due to lack of company.
thanks to both gentlemen, who responsed to my suggestion. (guess because they were lack of idea too :P )


my choice of clear soup


NTK choice of curry soup


Edie choice of tomyum soup


Let's drool!!

taste-wise, the clear soup was the best. savoury + sweet. (MSG? maybe.) but who care. as long as taste nice. it will make you drink till the last sip!
the curry and tomyum were quite heavy for me. maybe of the noodle they chose. or the soup itself was actually too savoury to my liking.
though pricey, think it worth!
YUM!!

With dinner, their journey come to an end.
Great outing, great chit-chatting.
Thanks guy for accompanying.
Let's plan another! ^^







PS:

this damn silly taxi intended to cheat us! Offer RM30 to Logos Hope. Thought we were kids, never read thing is it? we planned our trip ya, uncle! the price for shuttle bus to-and-fro + entrance fee is only RM11!!
DON'T MESS WITH US!
lol~


for more picture, please visit my FB page. ^^

Saturday, October 22, 2011

六个月

五,六,七,八,九,十。
六个月。
离上次回家,已六个月了。

家乡,你还好吗?
坐落在廉律路钱山花园小小一间的红屋顶房子,
你有想我吗?

爸爸,
知道你戒烟了。
好高兴,好高兴哦!
没抽烟对身体好多了。
不过啊,你还是要注意身体啊。
你的工作很燥热,要多喝水。
平日没事早点睡咯。
爸爸,
其实啊,
我很喜欢接到你的电话你知道吗?
虽然每次都是那几句,但,我就喜欢听。
每次听到你的声音就想立刻抱着你。
很想你勒。。。。。
等我回家,带我去喝早茶,吃干面
晚上,我们一起看电视!!
(但每次一定是电视在看你!哈哈。。)

妈妈,
谢谢你,每次公干都会故意来看看我。
然后,不用我说,就带了很多我爱吃的零食,
用心炖了我爱的八珍汤打包给我。
知道你很担心我在这里吃不够睡不饱,
但,甭担心啦。
我会好好照顾自己,
我们还要去环游世界,不是吗?
等我读完书,我们每年出国!
你啊,可要好好看好自己啊。。
不要给自己将大压力。
工作,有做就算了,不用管什么业不业绩的。
反正,再过两三年就退休,到时我养你啦!
身子重要啊!!懂吗?

林大姐~
你噢,很坏的咯。
每次叫你陪我多聊两三句,
你就所要玩game,读书,冲凉,吃饭。
叫你来KL陪我,你就说没时间,要补习。
人家小孩酱重要咩?
hng~
不管啊!
回家,我要吃你做的泡菜,
我要和你去逛街,
要和你讲话讲到傻。。
haha...

林弟弟,
你这个顽皮鬼!
PMR考完变仙了咯。爽咯。
可以玩game玩到吐咯。
听妈妈讲你要找part time hor。。
不用啦。part time将辛苦。你又不是缺钱。
乘假期练练琴,搞搞band,参加几个生活营,
不是更好吗?
乖乖勒。。
到时你来KL,二姐带你去吃你爱吃的咯。
盐炉鸡,雪花冰,炸鸡排,subway。。。对不对?
倒是不要减肥啊~haha!!

真的真的很想你们啊~~
好想抱抱爸爸妈妈,赖着他们,黏着他们,做他们的电灯泡。
好像和大姐聊天聊到天荒地老。
好像闹弟弟,看他无奈的样子。
owh....
十一,十二,一。。
三个月。
再三个月,我就可以逃离这里,
回到小小暖暖的家咯。
好期待。。。
三个月,答应自己,尽量不让泪水滴出来。
三个月,告诉自己,要乖乖,要坚强。
很快,
就可以回家了。

美里,
你好吗?






PS: 五姨婆,在另一边还好吗?对不起,没能回去看您最后一面。蛮遗憾的。毕竟,您也很疼我们。相信表姨会在那儿等你,你不会孤单的。一路好走,亲爱的五姨婆。永远想您。安息吧。



那个,真心祝你们俩幸福快乐。

Sunday, October 9, 2011

祝福你!

一年,365天。
是短,是长?
短短那52个星期,足以让事情有千万种变化。
曾经以为会是那样的,结果并不如想象。
过客,朋友,暧昧,亲近,牵手,疏远,断绝。。。。。。
生活中难以预料的事多不胜举。
除了欣然接受,毫无选择。
除了无奈,还是无奈。

抱歉,真的很抱歉。
付出的,我还不起。
伤过的,我医不到。
空洞的,我补不到。
能做的,就只有诚心希望你赶快康复。
过去的,算了吧。
你值得更好的。

祝福你!












答曰:“对。不是没有。无可否认,有时你还会在脑海出现。”

Sunday, October 2, 2011

dream wild~

WTH!!!!!!!!
I AM NOT going to sleep at odd hour anymore!!

what a silly silly dream!!
owh...
it is dangling in my mind!!
and...
the thing is...
it is 10000000% for sure this thing won't be happening in this world!!!

but why am i having it?

i bet it is because of my strained brain..

anyway, DREAM WILD is not a bad thing right?

:)







craving for a big cup of bubble tea, or a big bowl of ice!!!!!!! argh............... they should have delivery!

Monday, September 19, 2011

PLS!

我存在这世界上,不是当解闷器。
如果你闷了,自己找点娱乐吧。
我,没空,也没闲情,更没义务解你的闷。
不要,只在你无聊的时候才敲我的门。
谢谢!

Friday, September 9, 2011

exaggerating?

3 months of work.. 1 second, 1 sentence, 1 headshake, all gone. it's ok. i am fine. don't worry.
T.T

people are now working hard on their extended abstract. some thesis. some even on their slides. and i am now somehow, just at the beginning.

first, cells contamination. next, waiting for cells to be donated. then, slow cell growth. by the time my cells are growing so well, so fat, so beautiful, incubator down! no carbon dioxide supply, plus public holiday, meaning everyone living on the land under the name of Malaysia is off-duty!

new cells take time to grow. so, i try on the old cells. and, you say that may be not valid. fine. now, i have no cells to work on, and how do you expect me to get the result for the latest, newest thing you want me to try?

i know. this is research. circumstances sure happen. but, why me? why not others?

it is fated. the more i want to leave KL, the more i seem to stuck here.

the more i want to return to normal life, the more i need to wake when people prepare to sleep.

the more i want to stay strong, the more i am discouraged.

i wonder, can i graduate?

feel want to tell mum every single little thing, but she wont understand, even though she make herself sound like she know. somemore, nah... don't make her worry is more important. after all, she cant help too.

i know i can turn to friends. but everyone have their own burden, and they do not have the responsibility to listen to my little tiny thing. somemore, yea... i am bad in oral-expressing.

i realise, my Leo characteristic, is slipping away. or, maybe, i never own it.

i dont have the force to move on now. i know i have to, and need to, but i have no direction now! how can i continue my extended abstract? how i am going to do my result and discussion? how? how to start on thesis? how to start on slides?

oh.. i just feel bad.

"oh, you just think too much." yaya.. i am exaggerating.. in fact, there is no big deal.......

T.T

i just need a goodnight kiss before i hit my pillow, by daddy.. i suddenly miss him damn much!! cause in this condition, if i am at home, he will cheer me up with all his silly jokes. and i longed to sit on his lap now.

should i go to lab tomorrow to continue my work on the old cells? or should i just sit here and wait for the doomsday?

ohhh..... i am just sooooo lost!!!!!

can i just escape and go home????????!!!!!!

can i, please......................................... i beg you................................................... please.........................................................................................................

seriously, everything is making me more homesick!
i miss my home!!

and, i miss my confident.

T.T

i pray hard, crossed my fingers till my knuckles turn white, and will just do anything, for a smooth journey till the end of my research project.

oh lord, please~
please look after me~
>.<

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

凌晨的灵感



凌晨5点,当大家还在深深发着甜美的梦时,我已在电脑前接近6小时多了。最近和人家的时间颠倒,好像过这外国人的生活。身在大马。人在马大,却有着外国人的生理时钟,很讽刺有没有?

在烦恼data要怎样analyse & interpret,电脑不懂为什么就跳到了这首歌。听着听着,越听就越有意思,越有feel。。
哎哟,人啊,睡觉就做梦;没睡就想多多。这,是人脑的本性吗?

孙燕姿 - 《 天黑黑》


我的小時候 吵鬧任性的時候 我的外婆 總會唱歌哄我 (其实外婆比较会骂我啦。。嘻嘻。。)
夏天的午後 老老的歌安慰我 那首歌 好像這樣唱的
天黑黑 欲落雨 天黑黑 黑黑 (每次要下雨爸爸就会开始哼这首歌了~)

離開小時候 有了自己的生活 (出来读书就有了和家人不一样的生活了) 
新鮮的歌 新鮮的念頭 (超多新鲜的歌!)
任性和衝動 無法控制的時候 我忘記 還有這樣的歌
天黑黑 欲落雨 天黑黑 黑黑

*我愛上讓我奮不顧身的一個人 (之前说这种是很难发生在我身上,但活生生的上映了。现在想想,嗯,应该吗,值得吗?) 
我以為這就是我所追求的世界
  然而橫衝直撞 被誤解被騙 
是否成人的世界背後 總有殘缺 (好像还蛮多残缺的。。)
  我走在每天必須面對的分岔路 (每天都在这几个问题上打转 “culture, subculture, seeding,
treatment, harvest, ORO, how many hour incubation?”,最近添加 “open door?wait?” 噢麦
魀~)
我懷念過去單純美好的小幸福
 愛總是讓人哭 讓人覺得不滿足 
天空很大卻看不清楚 好孤獨 (当全世界放假回家时,马路车辆大大减少时,在异乡的游子,就会有
这种感觉)

天黑的時候 我又想起那首歌 突然期待 下起安靜的雨(可惜每天下的是雷电交加的阵雨)
原來外婆的道理 早就唱給我聽 下起雨 也要勇敢前進 (对啊,不勇敢能怎样?人,就是要有自救
能力)
我相信 一切都會平息(当thesis交了,presentation过了,3rd year结束了,这一切应该会平息点
吧。。上天保佑啊~) 
我現在 好想回家去(真的!!尤其是现在!!!!!!!!!='( )
天黑黑 欲落雨 天黑黑 黑黑



我即使可以倒回我的“林唯智之正常作息” - 早睡早起?

来,附加几张笨到傻到蠢到丑到每人有的照片。haha~~

**每天天还没亮就带着肿肿的眼睛摸黑去lab**


**当一个人在四四方方白白亮亮又静静无人只有细胞的lab时,难免会做一些傻事。LOL!!**



好啦!不废了。data还在等呢!Prof还在等我email过去!:S

Sunday, August 28, 2011

bla.......................

妈妈的一句慰问,
我泪如雨下。

看着妈妈带给我的零食,
我泣不成声。

我用心在做,
可我不知在做什么。

一时想放弃,
可我知道那不可能。

我不想说我累了,
因为我没资格。

我要求不高,
只求一切顺利。

学习的路途荆棘多刺,
求上天给我走下去的力量。

我想逃离一下下,
一下下就好,
真的,
一天,
一天,
一天就好了。。。。。。。
可labwork每日排满满。

我想恢复正常人的生活,
不想在日夜颠倒。

其实,
我真正想的,
只是回家看看家人,
让爸爸摸摸头,
让妈妈抱抱,
让大姐碎碎念,
让弟弟嫌麻烦。
T.T

Sunday, August 21, 2011

It is back!



finally!
I have my fringe back!
hehe....
how is it?
yea.. i know.. it look kinda silly..
never mind..
as long as i like it!
and i adore it..
why?
cause....
it is done by my mum!!
wakaka~~
妈妈的手,永远有不为人知的魔力~
thank you mummy~~

and i miss her tonnes now!
T^T

Friday, August 12, 2011

不是因为寂寞才想你

在朋友的歌库里听到了这首歌。
第一次听到,被它的旋律深深吸引了。
第二次听到,答应自己一定要把歌词找出来。
第三次听到,因为身不在电脑前,不能找。
第四次听到,完全把应找的资料放弃,立刻马上上youtube翻找,上mojim搜寻。
才发现,原来,歌词这么的动人,这么的贴切,多么的有意思。
owh~~~好好听哦~~~

《不是因为寂寞才想你》



相遇在人海 聚散在重逢之外
醒來的窗臺 等著月光灑下來
不用太傷懷 相信緣分依然在
讓時鐘它慢慢搖 滴滴嗒嗒等你來

看雲水漂流 看著落葉被帶走
淚濕的枕頭 枕乾潮濕的溫柔
等到下一個春秋 等到秋葉被紅透
讓那指針慢慢走 停在花開的時候

不是因為寂寞才想你
只是因為想你才寂寞

當淚落下的時候
所有風景都沉默
因為有你愛所以寬容
因為思念時光走得匆匆
月光輕輕把夢偷走
所有無眠的夜想你夠不夠



**是啊,先生。有时,我真的想你想到连自己都很惊讶的地步。(有时,我说‘有时’哦,不是常常。哈哈!)从以前到现在,没有一个人会在我脑海徘徊酱久,当让,除了家人以外。想你现在在哪里,是不是又在风流,还是在努力健身吸引一群的美女,又或是在上流社会中打转。你确实很有魅力。所以,对于你的风流,花花公子的性格,我一点都不惊讶,不吓着,不出奇。谁叫我笨,傻,蠢,对于你就是难招架。常常问自己,想你的时候,你是否曾想过我?更常常问自己,值得吗?haiz。。问世间情为何物啊??!!**

Sunday, August 7, 2011

慢慢来比较快

慢慢的学习沉默寡言。
慢慢的学习以文字表达情绪。
慢慢地学习独来独往。
慢慢的学习置身以外。
慢慢的学习被敷衍。
慢慢的学习被忽略。
慢慢的学习很多很多很多很多很多。。。。。。。。


还好,
还有妈妈为我装得满满的‘美里小吃’行旅箱陪着我。
^^

Friday, July 29, 2011

需要更大气的我

是怎样?整夜没睡好,早上醒了又睡不着,朦朦胧胧的起床就收到酱的简讯。你们,到底把我当什么了?
对呀,我是有说过我这个周末不能回实验室,但,我想,我也有权利懂你们下一步的决定吧。你们要回实验室,可不可以早点告诉我一声啊?可不可以不要在你们聚集在实验室,决定下一秒要seed plates了才通知我?虽然我也不可能和你们一样在今天seed,但我至少有那微妙的权利知道那些cells长得怎样了,至少我可以看看他们,至少我可以subculture,至少我可以在现场出声说我要几百万只cells来subculture在几个flasks吧。难道,我没有吗?
难道,教授收的undergraduates researchers就只有你们俩吗?难道,就只有你们的成果重要吗?难道,我就没有权力过问,只能默默地跟着你们的想法吗?
是!我成绩不如你们。是!我比你们贪玩几百万倍。是!我上课听书读书学习没有你们认真的的亿万分之一。是!我见钱眼开,每个周末每个闲日都去打工。是!我很懒惰,到现在journal没读几篇,thesis没有开始动笔。是!我不爱讨好长辈。是!是!是!对!对!对!我,Claire林唯智,比起你们,真的是个无地自容,没有上进心,颓废,没希望的家伙!
但,哪些应该不足以是我被忽略的理由吧?
我求求你们,下次,至少,早点通知我一声,好不好?
就当,我小气好了。。。。。。。
:(

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

I Dare You! *wink*

Here are some interesting stuff I came over when pouring over the latest CLEO magazine!

Title:
10 ways to Embrace Freedom

1. Go braless if you can afford to, but definitely go commando for that freeing feeling! Another plus point? no VPL!
** Going commando is the practice of not wearing underwear under one's outer clothing. - Wikipedia
** VPL is where the panties of a woman are visible through material of lower-body clothing. - Urban Dictionary

Norm at home! should have go on trying it out in public! LOL! VPL seems not bad too.

2. Can't imagine being seen without make-up? Try it! No one will look at you funny.

3. Walk into that expensive designer store, look interested in something outrageously costly, say loudly in posh accent, "It's so affordable, but it's so not my colour", then walk out.
This is interesting! Going to try it out!! Who's with me? ^^

4. See a total hottie on the streets? Strut up to him and tell him so. Even better if he's with a girl!
And, hey, this really really interested me!!!!! Definitely worth a try!!!!! Can anyone tell me where to find one? :)

5. If you're addicted to online social network, put up a post that you're freeing yourself from Facebook, and then feel free to change your mind later.

6. When you reach the restaurant, ask if they could announce your arrival. And when the waiter is walking you to your table, look for a better one and declare you'll sit there instead.
Before that, do make sure they don't charge extra on your bill later for all the troubles. haha...

7. The next time you get a telemarketing call, say you're not interested in what they're selling, but perhaps they might be interested in what you have for sale, like a used car. Think of it as a free ad!

8. Got a free Saturday? Take a domestic flight to, say, Peneng, do some eating and shopping, then fly back at the end of the day. We swear it's like being a celebrity!
I hope I will have the ability to do this every weekend, but the destination will be MIRI!

9. So what if the dance floor is empty? Be the first and show 'em how it's done! That cutie is bound to notice you, too!

10. Raid your bestie's closet and borrow something you'd never wear in a million years. Then wear it. In public.
Well, basically, my bestie and I are having common taste in clothing. right, Zhmm? (^_^)





So, anyone dare to take my challenge? hehehehe.... do inform me if you do so!

Monday, July 25, 2011

我就是这样!

日本餐,
我是很想吃,但不至于想念。
榴莲,
而是我最爱,现在我不亲。
好玩,
对啊,我就是太闲空,有家不要住,飞来老远的烂臭马大“玩”我的细胞,所以到现在还没有成绩!
孤僻,
对!没错!我就是要封闭自己,岁都不要见,一百年后再出现,所以不要问我何时可以再见。

我,
林唯智 aka 林唯奶 aka 阿妹 aka 二姐 aka Claire,
就是一个
没良心
没心肝
残酷无情
冷漠
孤僻
花心大白痴


奈我何?

Sunday, July 24, 2011

$

那个。。。
除了钱,
可不可以有其他话题?

Sunday, July 17, 2011

早安~


今早洗澡后,在晒毛巾时,无意间发现,PJ今天脱离了烟霾的笼罩。
晴空万里,天气晴朗,放眼望去,平日见不到的建筑物,看得一清二楚。
星期天,九点多的PJ,少了交通来往的吵杂声,多了小鸟的早鸣。
好难得的景色哦~
被一排排大树和大路的住宅区,显得格外宁静。
不知主人家起床了吗?
是不是一家围着圆圆的餐桌,边吃早餐,边聊天啊?
还是,儿女还在睡觉,爸妈到外买菜啦?
要不然,是不是像我家这样,大姐看报纸,阿弟在睡觉,我在厨房帮妈妈做早餐,爸爸把刚买回来的一星期grocery清洗干净,方便接下来几天做菜用。
在这漂亮的早晨,菜市场应该很热闹吧。
讨价还价的声音,小贩的叫卖声,朋友的招呼声~

KL的天空难得这样美,Miri的天空今早怎样呢?
应该是心里想得太大声了吧,不小心给老天爷听到了。结果,刚开FB,就看到这张照片。

美里市的早晨~
也是很美啊!!
哈哈~

在酱的早上,不知道家人在做什么呢?
爸妈是不是像平时那样,去买菜,顺便吃个早茶,两人把呼呼大睡的儿女‘抛下’去拍拖了呢?
大姐,起床了吗?看报纸吗?
那个阿弟,一定还在睡觉,要不然就是在电视机前面。
今早,爸妈会准备什么好料?
炒面?炒米粉?炒粿條?
不管是什么,妈妈一定不会忘了我的燕麦咖啡~ ^^

美好的早晨,
你们在干吗啊?
hehe。。








其实,只是想说说,
我,
想家咯~

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

unexpected finding~

Meeting up with my dear BFF, KeYan at IKEA the day before she depart. Killing our time at Border Bookstore. Was scanning and flipping through all the magazines there, and look what have I found!!

Marina Bay seahorse on the cover page~

A travelling magazine featuring MIRI!! My hometown!! How proud I am with it. **beaming**
Initially, I didn't notice it much, since traveling magazine is not my favorite. However, the seahorse sculpture on the cover page caught my eyes. Hey.. It's normal if you are from a city full with that sculpture. haha.. When I have a closer look at it, the word "美里 Miri" came to me so so so obviously. Excited, I grabbed it and turned to those related pages (below).


See that seahorse? It is made of some kind of metal (which I forgot :P), facing the wide South China Sea




Showing all the great places and food

When it comes to famous places, the Grand Old Lady and the petroleum museum beside it will always come first. As for food, 'kampua' or 'kolok mee' is un-escape-able.


Hong Yun Cafe and it's famous food~

And I am especially surprise to see that Hong Yun Cafe is extensively introduced. I mean, who will think that a coffee shop just within 5 minutes drive from my house, and is the place where we have our routine weekend breakfast will be featured? Not the people there, i confirmed. haha.. anyway, is so proud of it!! **beaming beaming**

MIRI~
oh, how proud I am with you~
and i do miss you a lot!!


Monday, July 11, 2011

great hangout + huge craving

Should I be happy? because i will have a few days of holiday due to my cell death? LOL..
anyway, thanks to the sudden death of this batch of cells, i got the chance to meet up with my bestie, Ke Yan dear~ ^^ should be meeting up her more since it is not easy for her to visit KL. but the silly Bersih rally locked me at home on Saturday, and the already-dead-cells locked me in lab the whole Sunday!! A Series of Unfortunate Event! haha.. however, really have great fun hanging by her side the whole afternoon and night. with her, i am the younger sister, which i seldom have the chance to be so. listen to her story, see her browsing over the clothes, owh~ i just simply miss her a lot! hopefully she will have more chance to come here. Ke Yan, come come!! next time you come we go eat Snowflake, eat Cupcakes, eat Jojo, go Amcorp buy cheap cheap book, go Tropicana, go One Utama....................... And yea.. she cure a bit of my homesick. thanks my dear~ muaks!! Ohya, hope you and him don't always quarrel la.. if he bullies you, tell me!!! hehe.. even though can't do much, but you always have my moral support ya~

Hanging out with her is great!!

Shopping mode is starting to turn on. Oh Oh~~ a bad sign. :P
There are just too much to be owned, but too little to spend.
List of thing in mind:
1) a purse
2) a handbag
3) a set of cosmetic
4) 1 or 2 pants/short pant
5) skirts
6) some formal wear
7) a camera
and that's only a tiny part of it. haha..
hmm, should i pamper myself?
why is it always so hard to buy something for myself? i always wonder.. i will just buy anything for mum, dad, sis and bro, without further thinking. but when it is for me, i will need to reconsider sooo many time till i end up buying nothing. haha.. WHY?!
ok. promise myself. thenext time i have my pay, i will buy something for myself. what will it be?? hmmm...............................................................................................................

yea.. most probably, just a CLEO magazine. After I finish, sis can read ma... LOL!!!!!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

A Lot To Be Said~

我亲爱的preadipocytes啊。。我求求你们啊。。不要爽不爽就死掉可以吗?
我对你们酱好,酱温柔,酱细心呵护;慢慢地,小心的把你们seed进小小的well;再让你们温温暖暖的在incubator里面睡觉,你们,为什么会死掉??!!
你们知道吗?你们死掉,我不只很难向巫妈妈交代,还很难继续我的research啊。。。等下人家做完了,回家了,快乐四处玩游,就剩我一个人孤零零在四面白得恐怖的lab里面,弯腰驼背在hood前面做research,你们,舍得咩~~~
LOL, as if all the cells know what I am talking about. Well, this is what going on recently with my research project. The cells seems to behave against our will. They were proliferating quite nice initially, but they are starting to protest now. First, they get contaminated. Well, may be it is because our wrong pipetting technique. Next, they are dead! What actually happen??? If things keep on getting wrong, Prof Umah say we need to "modify" our research "slightly". Oh.. can we, please, don't come to that stage?
So, please, my dear preadipocytes~~ Please give us a chance~~ yea, we know you all are protesting because we are just using you all as trial, but, without you all, we can't proceed to our own batch of new cells. Please, you don't know how IMPORTANT you all are to us!!
**Cross my fingers, bow my head, Dear Lord, please guide me through all this.**

诶,亲爱的你们,不是我要讲啦,可是,你们也可以有点自知自明吧。。地板上都是一条条黑黑的蚯蚓,你们不觉得恶心的吗?那个地板踏下去脚都会被粘着的状况,你们不觉得很恼人吗?那个差点让人滑倒的厕所地板,不让你们跳脚吗?好啦,我洁癖啦。可我到处都穿着拖鞋走,没直接和地板有近距离的接触都觉得恐怖,你们赤脚的,还很能顶。佩服佩服~~
I just cant understand. yea.. it is my problem maybe. I admit, I have slight 洁癖症. i can't stand hairs all over the floor, I can't stand the floor not mopped for 1 week, and i can't stand the toilet floor that is starting to accumulate slimy stuff. I mean, aren't housechores be a weekly, if not a daily, stuff to be done? Ya ya.. I am too over i know. Sorry.。 I know I am only a tenant for a few months so I don't have the right to voice out. Never mind. I can bear with it. Let me do everything for this few months, after all, I don't hate house chores. Should be glad doing it, because it means, I have a place to stay~ ^^ How nice, rather than hiding under the bridge.

第一,二个星期
"Hello, have a try of our Scott Emulsion." "Hello, 要不要试一下Scott Emulsion?" "This is Scott Emulsion. It is very good for your child. It contains........ DHA, EPA.......good for brain.........build immunity..........."
第三个星期
"Hello, 小姐,找卫生棉吗?" "Hello, may i know what are you looking for?" "Hello, cari pad?" "What brand do you usually use? Do you want to try our brand?" "Libresse is a pad with its unique design....no leakage.....adjust with your movement....soft.....no feeling......"
第四,五个星期
"Hello, have a try of our Scott Emulsion." "Hello, 要不要试一下Scott Emulsion?" "This is Scott Emulsion. It is very good for your child. It contains........ DHA, EPA.......good for brain.........build immunity..........."
第六个星期
"Hello, have a try of our Anlene Concentrate." "Hello, 要不要试一下Anlene Concentrate?" "This is Anlene Concentrate. It has four rimes more calcium than a glass of milk. It contains........ calcium.......good for bone, especially us, ladies............."
This is what I am basically doing over my weekends. I, joined the promoter world. HIAK HIAK~~ never thought i will become one, since I am against it since don't know when. However,due to many reason, mostly because of $$ and the damn boring weekend, I eventually become one. Been promoting a few stuff. Learn a lot. Make a lot of friends, ranging from younger ones to elder ones. Talk a lot. Smile a lot. Gained a lot knowledge in terms of public transport. haha.. However, I have stop becoming one now. Reason, I have reached my initial crucial target (can anyone recall it? hehe..) and, I am kinda tired of going here and there, go out 2 hours earlier and back at midnight cause of waiting for buses. It just drained every strain of energy you have! Yea yea, i know, money is not easy to be earned. I never thought so. It is just that I prefer fixed location, and nearer place. That's why,I am going to start at GongCha this week onwards! not an easy job, and not a good pay (in fact, just around half of that as promoter. =( ), but never mind. my second target is not that rush, and this job interest me more! Some more, whenmy research actually start, it is more convenient for me to go for work. Hopefully, things will turn out well.
**fingers crossed. head bowing.** again. :P

二十岁,我才刚刚开始我的大学生涯。二十岁,我的人生越来越多姿多彩。二十岁,我回到家还会向爸爸妈妈撒娇。二十岁,我很久很久还会发一张好人卡。二十岁,我偶尔还会像想不要长大,永远呆在爸妈身边。所以,当我听到蕃薯藤关系的堂妹要结婚了,眼睛简直就要掉出来!!二十岁,太小了吧?
I just cant imagine, how can a girl aged twenty be married? Ok, lets excluded those committed an "accident". haha.. 23,24 i heard before.but 20. isn't it too young? Some more, it is a girl from a quite conservative family. At first, i thought her mother might be against it, but, no! I am SHOCKED!! her mother totally AGREE it!! she even praised the guy. oh... so, the guy is rich, he treat your daughter nicely, he has a good job, but how long do you know him? I mean, they are just in a relationship for 1 year! If your daughter is older, maybe she can see him clearly. but 20! I JUST CANT IMAGINE! Well, again, it is non of my business and i know i don't have the right to comment on it, but, i just cant help it. Please forgive me.... anyway, i still think 20 i sway too young. for me, i wont step into the church so fast. i still have a lot to be done. I haven't earned enough, travel enough, play enough to get settle (or should i say, secured? LOL!) down. No way! (and i just told my mum I don't want to get marry. 我要爸爸妈妈养我一辈子~~haha!!)

bla bla bla.....
I still have a lot to say, but they are just bits and pieces. not worth to be mentioned. haha~~
oh, ya!
Sekinchan or Pulau Ketam?
Please help~~
haha~~

everyone,
Have a nice day, nice week, nice month, nice year.........
=P

Monday, June 27, 2011

T_________T

很突然
很突然
很突然
很突然
很突然

没有原因
没有理由
没有道理
没有为什么
没有想怎样





我想回家


真的
真的
真的
真的
真的


我现在想回家!


T____________T


Papa & Mummy, I miss you all a lot.....
i want your hug,
i want to kiss you
i want your morning afternoon and good night kiss
i want you to listen to me
papa
i want sit at your lap
i want lie at your tummy when we watch tv
i want to sit with you at the back lawn
i want you to touch my head
i want you to feed me with all the titbits you are eating
i am even willing to smell your smoke now!!
mummy
i want to lie beside you
i want you to ask me and that
i want you to kiss me every now and then
i want you to nag me
i want you to pinch me at my n**p**
i want to stick with you when you online
i want your hug when we talk in the bed
i am even willing to let you chase me to bed in the middle of the night now!!

DAMN~~
what is happening??

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

放下

放下,
就是用大脑,
控制连去那握着东西的手的神经,
指示它们放轻松,
好让周围的肌肉不再紧绷,
呈现松弛的状态,
让手指一节节的骨头得以伸直。
没有了摩擦力,
手中的东西依据牛顿地心引力之道理,
就会掉下,
这时候就看你,
是要那个东西落地开花,
还是安然无恙,
来决定你放下那东西的地方,高度,力度。

放下,
其实,
也要很多道理,
对吧?

Monday, June 20, 2011

双亲节快乐~~

xx张RM50握在手上是什么感觉?
“Erm。。酱咯。一叠比较厚一点的纸咯。”(拽爆!!哈哈~~)
第二次从户口按了xx张RM50出来。还是有点怕怕。哎呀,不能怪嘛。平时哪里有酱的机会按,又不是百万身家出生。。。。。LOL!(第一次就甭说了,完全意外。=.=!)
那酱多钱出来做么?shopping ar?
是咯~而且是在一家店用完。厉害吧。。。是不是证明了女人都是购物狂的讲法?
“有人开始败家咯。。tzk tzk tzk。。。悲哀啊~~”
怎样?不爽啊?我喜欢。要你管。hng~~ :P
到底买了什么酱神秘??
蒋蒋蒋蒋~~~~~塔拉!
就是这个!!
uMama~~


& uVision~~

其实一直想买样东西给Papa和Mama的,就是不懂要买什么。买补品,那个Papa一定说他很健康啦,不用吃啦留给老婆吃。让后勒,那个Mummy就会讲她现在在吃这个补那个补,不敢一次吃酱多,又怕吃了会有后遗症。结果勒,买了就会放在那边堆灰尘,等着变古董。不是我assume,是有证据的。看看我两年前从老远的Labuan买回来得养命酒和DOM酒就懂了。两瓶,我看他们最多和两口。>.<
所以这次,我要买一个放在那边随时随地都方便用的东西。又没有后遗症,又不麻烦,又舒服的东西。看他们还敢不敢搁在那边,等它生孩子!哈哈。。。。。还有,因为我不在家,没人帮Mummy按摩,所以她应该会很常用的说。(大姐?你要她按?呵呵。。慢慢等咯~~阿弟?除非不能上网,除非下雨他不能去打球,除非他心血来潮,不然,你要他按?如果你耐他碎碎念的话就没问题。没用的两个家伙!)Papa更不用讲了。只有他帮Mummy按,从来没有反过来的事。哈哈~~女强人啊~~~~(以后我也要酱!)
这次花钱真的有爽到。虽然说花了很多(真的很多。but是和大姐一人一半,其实还好啦。。),但一点都没有心痛的感觉。卖给双亲嘛,你要我付完我的家产我都愿意。如果这笔钱花在我身上,我看我会愧疚一辈子,而且应该会带着愧疚感直到我到另一个世界。LOL!!所以啊,Papa Mama,你们要努力用啊!!哈哈~~

哦~买礼物当然有原因。就是勒 > 双亲节快乐!!你们要开开心心每一天啊~~照顾好身体,吃多点,少做点,有空出去玩玩,看看世界,要买什么就买,偶尔要对自己好点,不要一直为我们想罢了。钱呢,不是问题。甭当心我们啦,我们都酱大了,大姐都可以嫁人了的说。。哈哈!!

希望你们会喜欢啦~~Always Love You two!! MUAKS~~~~~~~~~~~~~


第一次有写着酱多钱的账单。。




最近爱上一个人到处乱乱走,感觉很不错嘛。乱乱走,慢慢看。一个Midvalley的Jusco都可以逛上一两个小时。厉害吧~~haha。。以后没事做我就要到处发掘新地方!!哈哈!!

啦啦啦·~~

special semester 不知不觉过了要一个月,meaning我一个月没有看到妈妈爸爸大姐阿弟,一个月没有睡我那硬邦邦但很好睡的床,一个月没有看Astro,一个月没有冲热水澡。。。。。hampalang在家里常做的都一个月没做了,除了,吃饭,睡觉,上网。(废话!!)

拜一到拜五,不是窝在lab(闷到爆!>.<),就是窝在家读傻仔journal,这,就是做research的生活。ZZZzzz。。。

告诉大家,尤其是美里那班朋友,我打工去啦!!不是文文静静的那种公哦,而是,PROMOTER!!哇哈哈~~很难相信吧!啦啦啦~~~~~

现在看到orange的liquid会很phobia,看到女人月用品会不知觉摸摸一下。

有想过不要做了,因为,真的很累。搭巴士,等LRT,一边笑一边口沫横飞的站9个小时。。。。。but想到我的目标,有多么的不愿意,我都要坚持,要放弃,也等到目标达到为止吧!!(讲到很爽,搞不好下一秒就放弃了。嘻嘻~)

hello,aunty。你看我的年龄跟你很近咩?不要叫你的女儿谢谢‘姨姨’可以吗?还有,uncle,我可以做你的女儿了啦,还叫我aunty??!! =.=!
做promoter就一定要是aunty咩?hng~~

我,最最最最最最最最最最x99999999999999 HATE 的事就是,不守时的人!!!更加HATEx999999999999999999999999999999999999999999的就是迟到还嬉皮笑脸,一点愧疚感都没有的人。如果你迟到5-10分钟,fine,我原谅你,可能你逼不得已。可是,HALF AN HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!会不会太过分了??!!har!还笑笑笑。。#$%^$^%&*@#%!$#&$*

放工后拿了完全很多很多很多sample回来。巧克力啦,牛奶啦,果汁啦~~~~~很爽的说。。哈哈!!分分分,housemate,roommate,exroommate,coursemate,jimui。。。。。看到大家开心的样子,爽!看见别人开心的样子,其实感觉完全棒!

喂。。我给你女儿儿子吃营养品勒,酱都要拒绝我咩。。T_T 而且,你的儿子很可怜。看着我,伸着手一直说:‘daddy,我要。我要。’你却目无表情地推着的走开。@@

我想吃海鲜!!错!是,我想吃鱼。蒸鱼。妈妈的蒸鱼。KL去哪里找鱼?我不要Carrefour,Jusco,Giant那种打冰打到硬硬眼睛红红蒙蒙腮白白不新鲜的。

大城市,连卖猪肉都要冷气。猪肉摊,你在哪里??

豆腐,不是应该一块块白白嫩嫩的浸在凉凉清清的水里面吗?怎么这里卖的都是一块块被密封起来的呢?难倒,是要传达‘大城市里,身在拥挤的人潮,心,是孤独的’,对吗?

我想睡久一点。但是,就算没有调闹钟,还是在天蒙蒙亮的时候自然起。是怎样??我还没睡上一般人该睡的3/4勒。。

陌生人。是啊。是很陌生。因为,我们从来没有了解对方。。。。套人家一句话‘我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人’。

“只怪我們愛得那麼洶湧 愛得那麼深
於是夢醒了 擱淺了
沉默了 揮手了 卻回不了神
如果當初在交會時能忍住了
激動的靈魂
也許今夜我不會讓自己在思念裡 沉淪”

我好想好想唱K~~~~~~

好啦~
解闷之门路到此为止。
谢谢大家。
周公,不要下棋勒,我不会。我们来玩猜拳好不好?嘻。。。。。。。

Monday, June 13, 2011

I don't want~

waseh。。 可以不要吗?越来越严重咯。。
以前是两三个月后,
后来是一个月左右,
现在不到半个月??!!
T.T
不知道是我不正常,
还是这本来就因人而异。
不可以酱勒。。。
真的。。
真的不可以。。
这样不断不断的想家。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
一定是PMS!!
师傅,你的白凤丸太够力了啦!!
我甘愿做个不流血的少女,也不要做泪流不断的女生。。。。

Monday, June 6, 2011

一年。
说长不长,说短不短。
12个月。
很多大大小小,微微细细的是可以发生。
52个星期。
之前还开开心心一起唱着歌;之后纷纷躲在房间闷着。
365天。
之前还无所不谈,无话不讲;之后连声招呼都想了很久。
8760小时。
变化还真大。
525600分钟。
这段时间,你感受了什么?领悟了什么?
31536000秒。
希望从现在起的这段时间后,你的世界更美好。

祝:
××快乐。

Monday, May 30, 2011

是很special一下下咯。。

special semester
到底有几special jek?
如果说:
1)几百万里飞到KL,带着几百万重的行李 but不能check in 进宿舍,没有房间住,投诉但没人管
2)check in 时,晴天霹雳知道只能住到7月尾,但research到九月,就算曾经申请也没用
3)跟没有脑袋,没有人情味,做事没头没脑,我行我素的人沟通
4)打个part time一直因为transportation而走冤枉路,花冤枉钱
5)research时master student叽里咕噜,噼里啪啦讲个不停;coursemate死命点头,死命问问题,but我一点都不懂他们在讲什么外星语
6)每天看FB & Twitter满天飞的emo status
7)每天为三餐伤脑经,伤精神,伤体力
8)没lab是躲在房间发慌发闷,又被逼以无心状态看它懂我,我不懂它的journal
9)一天半夜回来,看到一个个子小小的女生躺在对面床上
以上9项都列为special的话,那,我的special sem,真的,很special一下下。。
>.<

四个月,谁来教我怎样过?
上天啊,
popi popi 啊~~
希望这四个月,
时光飞逝,大家research顺顺利利,烦恼全部走远远~~
PPPPPPPllllllllllleeeeeaaaaaaaaassssseeeee.........................................................




## 一个人,有不好咩?看戏不用买两张,吃饭不用付两份,上街双手空空好翻东西,电话不用整天按整天看,早安晚安剩起来,自由自在不用安排时间。。。。。。。。。。。。一个人,也可以很精彩啊~ T.T

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

the night before taking off

My heart feels heavy,
my hands feel so too,
even my feet agree.

the food lying there waiting to be packed,
the luggage sitting there waiting to be filled,
but there is no one helping them.

songs floating,
fingers moving,
eyes locked on screen,
body stuck on the chair,
the head just refuse to hit the sack.

oh!! the content of my heart!!
please, please, please stop flowing!
please don't leave my heart with four empty chamber.
grabbing, grabbing, grabbing with all my effort,
but they just flow through my fingers!!

please sleep my dear,
please don't say so,
at the moment,
where my heart feels hollow,
and echoes can be heard, crystal clear;
when water is finding ways to my eyes,
making me trying hard to blink them away.

i don't want to leave here.
from the past, till now.
never did i feel the enthusiasm to leave a peaceful town behind,
and never did i feel the excitement of the hustling bustling city.
there are reasons for me to stay,
and they are adding on.

reality is such a cruel demon!
that's why, i never like to face it,
only doing so when forced.
and,
we are all being forced,
as if it is the University course,
get it, passed it,
or you failed your 4 years program.
>.<

Sunday, May 22, 2011

go home~



Another summer day has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome, but I want to go home
Maybe surrounded by a million people, I
Still feel all alone, just want to go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
They each were a line or two, I'm fine baby, how are you
I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat and you deserve more than that

Another airplane, another sunny place
I'm lucky, I know, but I want to go home
I got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I want to come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside when everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
That this was not your dream, but you always believed in me

Another winter day has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome, and I want to go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by a million people, I
I still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run, baby I'm done
I've got to go home
Let me go home

It will all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home


以上,应该是众多游子的心声吧。
七早八早听,还真的感触良多。
从选择这门科系,就很清楚了解,家乡是没多大的发展空间。
可,我就是没有要在异乡定居的想法。
所以,决定读完degree,我要继续深造,直到我有资格成为教授。
虽然说,教授,在家乡也不一定有所用处,至少,家乡的大学及学院,也需要讲师吧。
月,就算外地再圆,再明,也没有家乡的清晰。
水,就算外地再清,再净,也没有家乡的甜。
朋友,就算再好,也没有家人亲。
那就是为什么我一直坚持要回家的理由。
或许,会有人说我思想狭窄,古板,不开通。
外面世界多姿多彩,千变万化,生趣无比,只有我这样傻的人才不喜欢。
无所谓,我有我的知音。
套人一句常话:“茶是故乡浓,酒是故乡醇,米是故乡香。”
认同吗?
^^

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

废话一批布酱长啊。。。

4年了,这难题一直存在。从来都不敢正视它。不为什么。只怪她太胆怯。
怕什么?没什么。真的。只不过,出身平凡的她,从来不相信自己命运会酱好。
一位人人欣赏,众女眼中的白马王子,竟然会忽视众多翩翩飞舞的花蝶,看中一只不起眼的果蝇。
当初,她不多思考,毫无犹豫的把他口口声声说喜欢她这件事,当成笑话。认定那是他闲得发狂的胡言乱语。
毕竟,被他追求过的,各个亭亭玉立,才华横溢。而那时的她,毫不起眼。
再说,那是对她而言,这公子的一举一动,简直很碍眼。她,从不明白他有什么魅力,足以吸引一大班的仰慕者,让她们为他‘服务’。
然而,当他真的采取
行动,大大力对她展开追求时,她,慌了。
怎么可能?怎么可能?不可能。不可能的!
因为卑微的自信,也因为一直以来对身世比较好的公子的偏见,她,一直忽视他的努力。
当他有那么一天对她表明心意时,她不加与思考,狠狠地给了他一张好人卡。
从旁人口中知道他受伤了,她,仍坚持他只是因为放不下面子而伤感。
以为,事情就酱结束了。
怎知,他,竟然不放弃!经过一段疗伤时间,他重整旗鼓,从新出发。
这次的他,成熟得多了,也绅士多了。尤其对她,心思可花多了。他试着了解她的喜好,她的习惯,她的脾气。
虽然,他的懒散,他的邋遢,他的桃花,仍然不减。
她,不是铁石心肠。这一切,她都知道。慢慢地,她,打开了新房。当然,有时还是会因为他的懒散而气恼,因为他的桃花而吃醋。
他的努力并无白费。下一次开口,她,答应了!
纵使没有轰轰烈烈,没有黏黏腻腻,他俩可乐在其中。他们一起躲躲藏藏父母及师长的天线,一起偷偷摸摸的传简讯,一起偏执理由去逛街。
在一起的日子,虽然大部分都在校园度过,但,真的很享受。
高中,各个学子不得不为自己的未来做打算。她,很清楚明白,他,不可能会在本地生造。她,更了解自己的父母没能力送她出国。
也许,因为厌倦了人人的指点,又或许害怕将来会受伤,她,选择了放弃这感情。
就算很舍不得,她,还是发了一张好人卡给他。
受到好人卡,他,气愤不已。他怒,他怨,他发飙。甚至,一连发了好几封短讯责骂她的冷血。
不听,不闻,不问。是她逃避,疗伤的方法。
大半年没有一句对话,她,认定这次他肯定放弃了。况且,应该没人会在二度被拒绝后从来吧。
半年后,中学六年的生涯快结束了。年终舞会正是大家的热门话题。
很惊讶,他竟然主动找她说话。还因为没有伴,省钱,以好朋友的理由约她成为晚会舞伴。她,犹豫了。
为什么?他的企图何在?他不可能没有伴。省钱?好微渺的理由。
本想拒绝,但,想想,人生没有第二次高中毕业舞会勒。就酱,她,赴约了。
他,很体贴。买票,选衣,购鞋,发型师,化妆师,他,都一一为她安排好。
那晚,他们玩的很开心。
曲终人散。但他却不想散。在载她回家的路上,他,又再次表明了心意。
那时的她,很想一口就答应,很想大大力点头。但,理智还是胜出了。理智告诉她,远距离爱情很不保险。别说不信任,单单思念,可能会夺了她一半的命,一整个魂。再说,一万八千里的距离,并不是说想见就能见,连通话都成问题。就因为这原因,她,狠狠的摇头,大大力的拒绝。
被拒绝的他,生气了。飙着车回家。
拒绝人家的她,失落了。朋友的责备,责骂,怪罪,鄙视,她,都默默地接受了。是啊。她是造孽啊。人家酱好,万人追求,偏偏她不要。
那时的她,相信时间是最好的疗伤。不管是对谁,时间久了,大家也会忘怀了。
他,几个月后,出国了。
她,几个月后,在离家不远的学院就读。
身为班上唯一一个异性,她,备受瞩目。她身边的苍蝇有增无减,各个表现好感的形式不同,但,没有一个她看得上眼。不是她挑,而是她免不了比较。
终于有一个。她,挺有好感的。但,她了解,她,并非那个他。
这么刚巧,那时的她,要离乡背井到小岛读书了。她,还以为远离家乡,在那鸟不生蛋,狗不拉屎的地方,可以暂时离开那恼人的异性关系,好好静静的读书。
人常说,事与愿违。真的。他,虽然远在异乡,竟然拨了越洋电话给她。而且,一拨,就是半年。
那半年,她,与他聊得很愉快。她,不敢多想,一直告诉自己那只不过是因为他想找个人聊天,毕竟,他说过,他也有找其他朋友。
半年后,他,就很突然得与她失去联络。真的很突然的那种。完全没有消息。她,失落了。她,责骂自己为什么酱在意。人家,找不找她,是人家的自由。或许,他,找到知音了。她,真的不该多想。
日复一日,月过一月,时间慢慢地就过了。偶尔,她会想起他。不知生活的怎样,功课怎样。。。偶尔,她会上网看看他的近况。偶尔,她会和朋友探听他的消息。然而,她就是没主动联络他,因为,她清楚了解没那个必要。现在这样,很好。
上了大学的她,繁忙的生活,让她暂时忘了他。虽然有时会和室友聊过去是想到他。
面子书乃大学生生命之书。在一次无所事事的游览下,她,看见了他。身边,多了个花蝶。
她,顿时,心凉了一阵。
后来,冷静过后的她,直怪自己笨,自己傻。为什么他不可以拥有?她,还期待什么吗?
上课与活动,让她接触了很多人。当中,当然夹着一两个欣赏她的人。她,不是没感情的人,对于别人对她的关怀,她,还是会被感动。
一天,不知什么原因,也许被那位绅士的一举一动感动了,她,让他牵了她的小手。
他们就酱,大手拉小手走了将近半年。这半年,绅士为她付出了很多。她,知道。但,她一直被一个问题困扰。为什么,感觉别与上次?她告诉自己,每段,都是新故事嘛,怎会一样。
就当她认为他们就会想酱安安稳稳过日子时,他,又出现了。
他,很突然的,在面子书找她聊天。她,认为只是朋友的一般问候,那是,确实是啦。
一次的聊天,让她知道了很多。他,分手了。原因,他对那花蝶没那种用心。他说,不好拖着人。她,好像被人大大力摇了一下。
她,也得了从不敢渴望的解答。当时停止联络,他说,他也不知为什么,只知道,他好笨。
他,找她的平率,日益增加。、从面子书,到msn,最后到skype。他们,似乎有聊不完的话,谈不完的天。有时,就算开着skype没话讲也爽。
她,深知继续这样,后果不亢设想。
另一方面,她,对绅士的温吞的态度和性格,有了窒息的感觉。她,觉得绅士要得越来越多,黏得越来越紧。她,有点负荷不来。绅士对她的好与关怀,她觉得她不配得到。对绅士,从以前一点儿免不了的比较,变得越来越多。
她,开始向他倾述生活的点点滴滴,反而只对绅士微微提过。她,期待他的问候及聊天,反而对绅士只存着日常的问候简讯。
她对绅士说考试不想踏出校园;但,得知他在同个城市,她就算时间很紧迫,也去赴了约。
她,为这现象编制了很好的理由 - 绅士忙事业,她忙考试,他闲的很。但她知道,事情,没那么简单。
原本,想利用短假,到槟城放轻松,希望在休息过后可以好好整顿思绪,想清楚,认明白自己要的是什么,追的是什么,现在的选择,对吗?
就说嘛,事与愿违,突如其来的假期,让她有机会回到可爱的家乡。
她,兴奋。第一时间,她,只想告诉他。而,绅士,她是在去机场的路途才通知一声。
到家的第二天,她,赴约他的约。一整天。那一天,她很享受。她,也看出了他的用意。
她,不想欺骗。她,把感觉认认真真的告诉了绅士。绅士,当然,受惊了。甚至,她觉得他受伤了。
她,顿时,陷入困境。她,不想一时的冲动而做出不理智的决定。她,告诉绅士,给彼此一点时间。
在家乡的日子,她,除了陪父母的日子以外,只要得空,她就会赴他约。他,常用做assignment的理由,约她,帮他做。她,明明以前很恨他这样的行为,却,心甘情愿帮他。理由,反正,她闲着。
他,的小动作很明显。她,知道,但不回避。
果蝇,不管时间多久,还是果蝇。她,不解。为什么?被拒绝了酱多次,会有不死心的吗?他,真心吗?她,可以吗?
好几次,她会告诉自己:“不管啦。短短假期,放纵吧!” 可是,假期后呢?心会死吗?
她又会说:“人生短短。就那么一次。受伤,就伤吧!不管他居心何在,他现在疼她,她现在享受,就好了。” 她,真的酱坚强吗?
还有,绅士。她,好像有了答案。但,就酱吗?之前的也是有感情啊。好人卡,不是乱乱分的。分了,心里相对的多了一刮。但,拖下去,她明瞭,机会,前途茫茫。她,不要浪费一个好人的居心,用心,感情。绅士应该拥有欣赏他,珍惜他的花蝶。
她,好希望,一觉起来,会有一封上天给的指示,教她怎么做,怎样最好。
haiz..... 问世间情为何物啊?!



wah.... 什么故事来的???!!!

好烂的故事,我懂啦。。写爽嘛。。你不给哦?不给我假期闲得发狂,闲的手痒哦?
haha!!
好啦。看看就好。因为,我只想看有没有机会往小说一方面发展,工作难找嘛。。。。。。


nah。。。看将多废话,给你们听几首好歌啦。。。不要讲我虐待啊。。blek.....
选了几句很有意思的歌词,觉得怎样?^^

真的可以結束嗎 已經不需要回答
滿天的雪在下 將我的心蒸發
如果愛可以放下 為何那麼多掙扎
那冷風烙心如刀割 彷彿愛的懲罰


我很想愛她 但是眼睛在說謊
隱瞞比較容易吧 免得感情變的複雜
我很想愛她 但是理智在吵架
退出可能解圍嗎 誰能給我一個好的回答


我懂星座卻沒有人像我 真的喜歡一個人安靜的自由
我做的夢我堅持做到最後 就算我爬到雲端也繼續做夢
我唱的歌只希望能快樂 其他的我也不想要想的太多
因為我們都最想擁有自己最真的感動


怕不怕被拒絕 怕不怕被省略 你怕不怕被淪落在宿命中妥協

別指望我諒解 別指望我體會 愛不是注定要填你的缺
太多的是非 來不及杜絕 更不想依戀這殘缺的美
殘缺的迂迴


很想知道你近況 我聽人説還不如你對我講
經過那段遺憾 請你放心 我變得更加堅強

雖然離開了你的時間 比一起還漫長
我們總能補償 因為中間空白的時光
如果還能分享 也是一種浪漫
關係雖然不再一樣 關心卻怎麼能說斷就斷


現在我不停忙碌 不斷讓步 想看清楚
你不像他 把我當成全部
可是愛有時善良 有時殘酷 我要如何
愛他像愛你那樣義無反顧

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

长篇大论。废话多多

不知不觉,我,离乡背井,飞越旷阔的南中国海,来到人生地不熟的马大深造已经两年了。说长不长,说短不短,说久不久,说新不新。(=.=! 那要说什么?)

这两年来,除去想家,除去考试,除去活动压力;我在‘异乡’其实过得还不错,还蛮充实的。

最值得骄傲的事,莫非与区很多很多地方吃过,吃了很多很多不一样的食物。虽然口口声声说没钱了,穷了,要餐餐吃难吃到爆的DU食物,可是,忍不到个两三天,有喷出去吃了。:P 好像很败家酱。。随便!读书读到酱幸苦,吃一餐好的,应该不为过吧!(只我安慰中。。。。。)erm,发现,在高楼大厦铺满街的地方,要找到一样好吃的,除非你很有很有钱,要不然,你就要很懂很懂路,很甘愿很甘愿走路,才能吃到一顿蛮不错的。(好像太夸张了。:P)
来回顾一下去过那里,吃了什么:

蓬莱 - 台式料理。套餐为主。分量蛮大的。个人觉得味道还好。春卷不错吃。


Papparich - 和Old Town concept 差不多,只是比较高尚一点,荷包比较慢的时候可以来。哈哈。。值得一提的是他们的饮料,各式各样,任君挑选。


Old Town - 比起Papparich,个人爱是热爱Old Town多一点。除了价钱公道点,饮料也比较纯。尤其101浓咖啡,根本就是人间美饮!


忘了名称。它,位于KL Central对面。不注意看,应该很难留意到。比起一般KL的餐厅,算蛮经济的餐厅。分量够大,味道不错,有家里的味道。


SweetChat - 甜品屋。一开始还会常常去,过后就对它失去热枕。芒果冰为个人最爱。


鼎泰丰 - 小笼包专卖店。香港格式。个人觉得普普通通,不怎么值得。


Snowflake - 大大力推荐!!吃了酱多家甜品,它,在本人心里的位置高居榜首,远远超离任何一家。什么都好吃。Yum yum!!


新宝岛 - 台湾食品为主。不错吃。但要会选Menu。适合聚餐。老板娘人很友善。^^
个人超爱它们的芋头,和Pudding。



甜品哥哥 - 不怎么值得的甜品屋。可是还不错吃的说。比其它,还是‘记得食’值得点,好吃点。


香港粥面家 - 还好吧。。(不要叫我评语啦。因为对香港餐没兴趣。哈哈。。)


Marufuku - 上网的来的结果。好吃。公道。磨灭本人对乌东面淡而无味的恐惧感。


The Cosy Place - 意见无意中发现的餐厅。话说,我们三是要到四季餐厅一番究竟,怎知道,行了万里路 (45分钟LRT)它竟然在装修!无可奈何,只好到附近觅食。所幸,这家餐厅装横还不错,食物不错,分量很大,价钱超公道。总算没白走一趟啦。 哈哈。。



槟城美食 - 两年来去了两三次槟城。对那边的食物,白吃不厌。尤其槟城laksa 和 rojak,完全天天吃都不腻!

当然,两年来不可能每天都只去这些地方啦,会吃到吐的勒。还有很多很多很多地方没post上来,比如Jojo板面,麻辣板面,Ss17大排档,Taman Bahagia大排档,Chatime,Sushi Zanmai,。。。。。。。。。如果每个都提,这个blog应该会爆满,upload不上。haha.. 虽然说KL没事多不胜数,本人,还是觉得远在家乡的食物才是人间美食。哈哈。。(请原谅我的偏见。:))


这两年来,大学生活也让我认识了很多很多很多,各型各色的人;让我参与了很多很多很多,大大小小的活动;去了很多很多很多,远远近近的地方;让我学到了很多很多很多,课本学不到的道理与能力。


上课怎么可能没有系友?很高兴我们一班十多个华人能容在一起,一起上课,一起玩乐,一起到处吃吃喝喝。意见不合,当然无可避免。庆幸大家能互相礼让,一起想办法解决难题。coursemate,希望接下来的日子,我们的感情能更上一层楼,一起study smart, play hard!! ^^


进入Biomedical Science这课,大家除了读书,上课,做实验,其实,很幸运的,我们有了举办活动的机会。成为了Biomedic Annual Gathering 的Marketing Director,本人见识到了筹钱的辛苦。谢谢大家的帮忙和支持,才能顺顺利利的筹够那微妙的资金。过程中我知道得罪了很多人,劳烦了大众,对不起,也谢谢你们的忍耐。下次,有机会,本人一定会改进。


Minggu Minda Kreatif (MMK)
一开始并没有什么心意参与,毕竟不是首选,但,参了以后,从来没后悔。谢谢MMK,让我这个对搞活动毫无头绪的笨蛋,成长到今天至少懂得皮毛的傻瓜。也很谢谢seniors, batchmate和juniors们的支持,让我领队成功,和大家一起完成了2010/2011MMK各个活动。虽然,因为宿舍大改革,让这活动前途不怎么理想,但是,不管争取到怎样,希望MMK会是大家大学生活其中最有回忆的活动!


FRIM 公园 - 位于Kepong。去了两次。第一次,1st special semester.谢谢2nd的seniors.第二次,MMK family outing。谢谢MMK senior & junior co-ors. 很不错的一个休闲地方。环境优美,空气新鲜。就是远了点,不然,本人应该会常常到哪儿跑步骑脚车。那里有一条很出名的吊桥,可以遥望整个KL,感觉蛮棒的。


云顶打工记 - 第一次打没有关系到教育的工。而且,地点远在云顶。很好的经验。住在听说闹鬼的apartment,半夜睡觉冷到半死,冲着热水器流出来的冷水,和一班看不起小妹妹的大姐姐做事,到云顶工作人员餐厅白吃白喝。。。。这些经验,应该一辈子只有那么一次。很庆幸,我有机会得到。哦,这次工作也让我觉得缘分的魔力。在哪儿认识了两个UM生。在UM酱久,碰都没碰过,反而到了那么远认识到。哈哈。。接下来的大学最后一年,有机会,我还要打工!!


两年的大学生活,我最最最最最大的收获就是认识到了一班好朋友 - Angry Kutu-s们。我们十个,个个性格不同,兴趣不同,风格不同,脾气不同,但,奇妙的,就能聚在一起。一起逛街,一起吃饭,一起三八,一起疯,一起闹。和她们在一起的日子,真的,很爽。虽然大部分的他们下学期就搬出去住了,但,相信我们之间的bonding不会减少。喂~~你们啊。。要常常会来看我们这几只还留在宿舍的kutu-s勒。还有啊,我们上门拜访的时候啊,不要让我们吃闭门羹啊!哈哈。。

kutu情万岁!!

哦!还有!完全完全要谢谢老天爷,赐给我两个超超超可爱的roommates - Zhmm 和 Siew Fen!!!!!! 没有她们,我想,这两年我应该会被闷死在房间。她们啊,根本就是活宝。两个性格不同的她们,常常会闹来闹去,酸来酸去,光看她们闹,听她们吵,就已经是很好的娱乐了。哎呀。。有很多很多很多的感言要说, 很多很多的感动要讲,可是,真的不懂从何说起,一言难尽啊!!总之,就是要谢谢她们对我的眷顾,对我的忍耐,给我的鼓励,给我的陪伴!roommate, 没有你们在身边的日子,我会很想很想很想你们的!!owh.... 我开始已经有你们不在身边的空虚感了。开始想念你们了。T.T 不要嫌弃我去看你们啦~~

ROOMMATE, 友谊永固!!


好啦好啦,写酱多,看都看厌啦,好像写毕业感言酱。哎呀,人家假期闲空,要你管。haha..
哦!希望勒,接下来的最后一年,能顺顺利利地完成research,顺顺利利的毕业,erm,顺顺利利拿到我想要的未来。然后勒,也希望人际关系越来越好,朋友越来越多,课外技能越学越多。去更多的地方玩,找到更多的地方吃好料。当然,也希望身边的人也和我一样能万事顺利,身体健康,快快乐乐,高高兴兴啊!!

大家,假期快乐噢~ ^^