Friday, January 14, 2011

随便乱乱写。

*WARNING!! this is a damn bored post. read, if you want to be bored to death. leave, and you save time for others.






这时还醒着的我,少见。physically,又累到。mentally,比physically累一百倍。but then,就是睡不着。aiyo..上了大学,insomnia好像很爱来打我的注意。>.<
没有特别的原因为什么睡不着,只是脑袋不懂为什么一直跑跑跑。。心事吗?hmm...如果所有顾虑的东西,所有想的东西都是心事,那,我有。哈!
最近,忙着活动。1st time become director. say no stress, is cheating. obviously. there are too much to be care, too many to be thought. maybe like people say, i am expecting too much. am i? what i expect is just the very basic. i only wish that everything goes smoothly, and end in a happy satisfied way. i don't mean to be pushing, my dear teammates. sorry, if you all feel so. i really really don't mean it. but then, sometime i can't help to be commanding, because things are getting near and there are tonnes to be done. i also feel bad seeing you all have too spend your precious time doing all these, then staying up late also. sorry, and i beg your apologize. please just hang on for a few days and you will be free of these. sorry, i can't give you all the enjoyment feel. juniors, i am very sorry too. you all are so naive, and ought to enjoy university life, but are forced to be burden with all these things. 我,真的,很抱歉。
不懂为什么,可能还不能习惯这样的忙,整个人变得情绪起伏很大。身边的朋友,若有得罪你们,我,非常之抱歉。>.< (ball ball 我啦。。。)
为什么酱久才见面,反而有不欢而散的feel? 想说:我知道你是为我好,为我着想,可是,我有我的生活啊。我有我的生活作息。再加上,你又不是不知道我最近在忙活动。不是我不要,是不能。你或许会想,我为什么有时间和roommate一起。拜托~如果你是个白天有空的人,我一样有时间酱对你。不要忘了,对大学生,晚上,才是最好一起搞活动的时刻。你,应该比任何人清楚。况且,至今,你的活动也是这样。那,你有没有想过,我闲空,你忙时,是怎样? 还有,我不说,不代表我没事。不说,因为我觉得没必要。也因为,我不习惯向人说。可以说我顽固,随便,可我觉得说了也没用。所以,请不要是也向我抱怨,不是也向我抱怨。更,不要约束我的去向。我爱上课睡觉,so?我爱喷出去走走,so?我爱回家,不爱KL,so?我爱什么都回家才做,so? 不要认为你不会,我就不会。please......一种米,白种人,你,应该听过。please, 我真的不想觉得累得快。
很难的跟roommate去逛街,看电影。本来很高兴的心,被一封sms消灭。很衰的sms。带给了我霉运。因为,我心爱的水壶破了!!完全没有责怪人的意识,毕竟accident do happen。就当它把我的霉运打破了。只是,毕竟,它是妈妈给我的,也是一直紧紧跟着我,确保我不被渴死的水壶,对他它的感情真的很深。难免,会很伤心。心,就好象被划了一刀。讲吧!讲我傻吧!我无所谓。因为我真的和爱它。他一破,我就想到妈妈。妈妈应该会很sad吧。sorry, mummy。T.T 还很傻的为了它一把鼻涕一把眼泪。hng..你们不了解。sorry a, someone, I don't mean to be quiet le.. just that, the combination of sms and the dead of my bottle really do affect me by a bit. and, quite emotional after the movie. i am not blaming you. sorry if let you think so.
好啦。要逼自己去睡啦。>.<
‘早安!’