*WARNING!! this is a damn bored post. read, if you want to be bored to death. leave, and you save time for others.
这时还醒着的我，少见。physically，又累到。mentally，比physically累一百倍。but then，就是睡不着。aiyo..上了大学，insomnia好像很爱来打我的注意。>.<
没有特别的原因为什么睡不着，只是脑袋不懂为什么一直跑跑跑。。心事吗？hmm...如果所有顾虑的东西，所有想的东西都是心事，那，我有。哈！
最近，忙着活动。1st time become director. say no stress, is cheating. obviously. there are too much to be care, too many to be thought. maybe like people say, i am expecting too much. am i？ what i expect is just the very basic. i only wish that everything goes smoothly, and end in a happy satisfied way. i don't mean to be pushing, my dear teammates. sorry, if you all feel so. i really really don't mean it. but then, sometime i can't help to be commanding, because things are getting near and there are tonnes to be done. i also feel bad seeing you all have too spend your precious time doing all these, then staying up late also. sorry, and i beg your apologize. please just hang on for a few days and you will be free of these. sorry, i can't give you all the enjoyment feel. juniors, i am very sorry too. you all are so naive, and ought to enjoy university life, but are forced to be burden with all these things. 我，真的，很抱歉。
不懂为什么，可能还不能习惯这样的忙，整个人变得情绪起伏很大。身边的朋友，若有得罪你们，我，非常之抱歉。>.< （ball ball 我啦。。。）
为什么酱久才见面，反而有不欢而散的feel? 想说：我知道你是为我好，为我着想，可是，我有我的生活啊。我有我的生活作息。再加上，你又不是不知道我最近在忙活动。不是我不要，是不能。你或许会想，我为什么有时间和roommate一起。拜托～如果你是个白天有空的人，我一样有时间酱对你。不要忘了，对大学生，晚上，才是最好一起搞活动的时刻。你，应该比任何人清楚。况且，至今，你的活动也是这样。那，你有没有想过，我闲空，你忙时，是怎样？ 还有，我不说，不代表我没事。不说，因为我觉得没必要。也因为，我不习惯向人说。可以说我顽固，随便，可我觉得说了也没用。所以，请不要是也向我抱怨，不是也向我抱怨。更，不要约束我的去向。我爱上课睡觉，so？我爱喷出去走走，so？我爱回家，不爱KL,so?我爱什么都回家才做，so? 不要认为你不会，我就不会。please......一种米，白种人，你，应该听过。please, 我真的不想觉得累得快。
很难的跟roommate去逛街，看电影。本来很高兴的心，被一封sms消灭。很衰的sms。带给了我霉运。因为，我心爱的水壶破了！！完全没有责怪人的意识，毕竟accident do happen。就当它把我的霉运打破了。只是，毕竟，它是妈妈给我的，也是一直紧紧跟着我，确保我不被渴死的水壶，对他它的感情真的很深。难免，会很伤心。心，就好象被划了一刀。讲吧！讲我傻吧！我无所谓。因为我真的和爱它。他一破，我就想到妈妈。妈妈应该会很sad吧。sorry， mummy。T.T 还很傻的为了它一把鼻涕一把眼泪。hng..你们不了解。sorry a, someone, I don't mean to be quiet le.. just that, the combination of sms and the dead of my bottle really do affect me by a bit. and, quite emotional after the movie. i am not blaming you. sorry if let you think so.
好啦。要逼自己去睡啦。>.<
‘早安！’
